hiii yall :3 i am alive don't worry! i'm no longer sick, just the occasional stuffed up with snot when i first wake up ><

i have a lot going on.. but the most important news i have to share is this month marks my one year anniversary on testosterone!! the year really flew by to be honest. i feel like i've barely changed physically haha. i have my next appointment coming up this week, and i still haven't decided on whether or not i want to go up to the max dosage or not... i'm at .4, but for some reason i really feel like .5 might be TOO much for me? it's really not that much of a difference when i think about it, but my body likes to be fragile lol. we'll see how i feel when the day comes. i have much to think over.

the reason why i have been so busy is because i am currently in the process of finding a place to move... hoping to have somewhere nice before the end of the year. there's still a lot to figure out, but wish me luck!

keep getting sick as hell and its 100% due to the weather -_- my immune system is just so terrible the rapid fire temperature changes are sending my body into a tizzy. ended up almost sleeping 20 hours out of a day; thankfully that seemed to do the trick and now i am feeling more with it and better ;; still... its rough on everyone experiencing winter rn i think. things could be way worse though. this winter we've constantly had a crock pot going w/ hot & spicy foods to kick the sickness's ass too wahaha.

the state of the world is honestly really stressing me out; but i have no choice but to press on and try my best to help others in need. its so hard to focus on anything tbh. def the seasonal depression beating my ass. ahhh its so nice to have a place to complain. but i do want to try and add some positive notes to this entry too :) so hmmm....

i have my 1 year check up app w/ my hrt doctor next month which im super excited about >u< i'm really hoping since i'll be hitting the 1 year mark for my t injection it'll mean progress with my voice will happen faster. i was doing my best being patient with it but now because my voice is lowering and changing; it actually hurts to talk sometimes... i am in the process of retraining myself on how to speak so i can do it in a way that doesnt tear my throat up. it is so annoying lol. nyway i think i've said all i wanted to say... for now! >:3

i'm still not quite sure how often i want to do blog entries, but i'll try to do one every 1-2 months if possible. anywaaaay, hi hi hello :3 i haven't been up to much honestly. i've been pretty low energy but i am trying to get back into playing games and stuff like that. possibly drawing more as well. if i do any doodles i like i'll be sure to post them here!

one of the games i am getting into even though it's still early access is atlyss. i haven't played an mmo in yeaaars and i thought the character designs were cute. i've mostly been playing with my sis & hubby but maybe soon i'll try playing in public servers.. >_< it's a little intimidating. my character is a mystic and i'm focusing more on defensive playstyles. i tend to gravitate towards playstyles like that fsr, been like that since i was a kid. i remember in all the mmo's i played back then i was healer/tank x3

the holidays were fine here, but man this new year is starting off with a kick to the nuts, not just for me but everyone it seems u__u here's praying everyone stays safe, and i wish you all the best.

welcome to my first ever blog entry! i've been having so much fun messing with my neocities. it doesn't function the best and is held together with tape and a prayer, but i'm enjoying myself! i dont really have any concrete plans on what im going to use this for; but some ideas ive been toying with have been life updates, things i find neat, and my transitioning progress.

as i currently write this i am 9 months on testosterone. a little late on keeping a diary of all the progress but its whatevs. the changes have been wild. voice is deepening, v slowly, its a little cringe because sometimes when i get worked up and im talking loudly my voice will crack and ill sound like a teenage boy; at my age of 29! >_> the body hair hasnt rly gone too crazy yet; i have a small stache, and my eyebrows are becoming more powerful. im noticing the start of hair growing around my jawline and chin. and a lot of my body hair is darkening majorly. on a more exciting note: my periods have finally stopped! feels like it took forever compared to everyone else. but its really exciting to see my body go through these little itty bitty tiny changes daily; and im honestly thrilled to see what the future holds.

the holidays are currently happening huh? i just realized. i hope everyone has a good one & stays safe!